{"id":928,"date":"2014-04-09T22:27:00","date_gmt":"2014-04-09T22:27:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/box2067.temp.domains\/~atinytri\/thoughts\/"},"modified":"2021-06-24T10:33:45","modified_gmt":"2021-06-24T14:33:45","slug":"thoughts","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.atinytrip.com\/thoughts\/","title":{"rendered":"Thoughts"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Ten years ago I left a (very) high stress job and knew that I would never again choose to be in a position where I had so little say regarding my overall well being.\u00a0\n

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It was a moment of change in my life, of pushing boundaries, of prioritizing my desires. I didn’t know where it would lead, but I made a rough plan and started moving forward, figuring out the details as I went along.<\/p>\n

Never in my wildest dreams did I expect that within a few months I would meet my future husband, \u00a0start changing the course of my life based on shared interests, and prioritize goals that were not my own. I never for a moment regret that leap of faith, but throughout this entire period I also stayed true to that decision I made so long ago; no more stress.\u00a0<\/p>\n

Recently, however, the stress has found its way back into my life. For a few weeks now I’ve been walking around with an intermittent pit in my stomach.<\/p>\n

I’m finding it difficult to deal with having no control over the course of our future. Of course, I will be involved in the details, but that big picture, over arching trajectory: it’s not in my hands and it is SO hard. I can make contingency plans, although they end up feeling mostly like a mental exercise without much substance. I can focus on the day to day, but sadly, I don’t find that quite enough to be truly fulfilled. I can think about myself instead of “us” but seeing as it’s difficult to separate the two that does not feel very fruitful either.\u00a0<\/p>\n

In the meantime, I’m trying to distract myself enough to not think about it until there is a concrete plan.<\/p>\n

I’m trying to inspire myself with new recipes, house organization projects<\/a>, and enjoying the little moments with our awesome little boys. I’m finding that being proactive helps a little, but ignoring the problem helps more. That’s something I didn’t expect…hmmm.\u00a0<\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ten years ago I left a (very) high stress job and knew that I would never again choose to be in a position where I had so little say regarding my overall well being.\u00a0 \u00a0 It was a moment of change in my life, of pushing boundaries, of prioritizing my desires. I didn’t know where …<\/p>\n

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